Break Some Shit

Someone once told me that at one of her fast food jobs, when things got really stressful, she would go into the freezer room and punch boxes of frozen food to unleash the stress.

As for me, I have the tendency to just kick walls really hard repeatedly. Today, I really lost it and went to the hot shop behind Make Your Own Glass to unleash my rage onto the wall. It was mediocre. I really needed to just break some shit. I have all this pent up anger/frustration/sadness that I need to unleash. I think I need a punching bag really bad.

Sometimes, I just think of tripping on something and falling into the glory hole/annealing over/the furnace. Which is worse? I don't know.

And is it really horrible that sometimes I want to crush and break my hands by punching a wall really hard? I mean, I wouldn't mind the pain, but I need the functionality of my hands. I think that's the main reason that prevents me from doing it.

P.S. Life is hard. I try to think about the optimistic side in each situation, but it's hard. It really is. FUCK!!!!!!!! Love, sandy.

Movies

Dinner and movie for the lonely self?

Alpha Dog
Horrible. This would be in my bag of torture gadgets.

Knocked Up
What was not to love? A movie that really hits some true points about relationships. And Paul Rudd is still hot.

The Reaping
Eh... It was okay. There's no beginning of the story, it just starts.

Rocky Balboa
Most of Stallone's (grand)fatherly advice were heartfelt. They were like public service announcements for how to live and get through life.

AVP: Alien Vs. Predator
I started watching it before the file fully completed, so there were jumps. The scientists' "discoveries" (mainly one dude's) were lame and expected.

The Notebook
No wonder girls (and some guys) LOVE this movie. If you are/ever have been/expecting to be in love, then you would get this movie. (Surprisingly, the same director directed Alpha Dog.) Oh, yes, Ryan Gosling is very hot in that teenager turning into a rugged sexy 20-something-year-old man way and Rachel McAdams is very likeable in that ambivalent girl/woman way. (It's funny too because she was superbitch in Mean Girls.)

Déjà Vu
For anyone who wants to see how a REAL action/drama/thriller is done with a beginning, plot, character development, climax, resolution, etc., etc.

Audrey Kawasaki

I'm in love...

OctoGirls
Oil on wood 24x15
2006

Audrey Kawasaki

Turns out, many people are in love with her (work) too.

It's like Britney pre-KFed/having kids/her current/last album/the frightening VMA flop.

Alpha Dog

...is the worst movie I have ever watched.

Except for this part:

Yup, Still in Corning

I was offered another two months+ at the WiW, which has officially been renamed the "Make Your Own Glass" Workshop... The MYOG. I took it. I mean, I'm TAing until the first week of December anyway. Oh, and the holiday sale. ($$)

And I think—Would I be happier living with my parents in NYC with no job? Who knows...well, that will be the case "soon" enough nevertheless.

I really can't wait to go on vacay, a.k.a. Montreal, Canada. Yes, in the winter.